September 20, 2010

What I believe

Last year when I wrote “Do you believe in ghost?”, someone asked me “Do you believe in God?”. That time, I did not response as I thought it was a bit sensitive to talk about the subject. Lately when I wrote “Gwai Cheet”, again someone asked me if I believe there is God. So let me tell you what I believe.

Do I believe in God? Not really … why? I feel there is something and I sense there is something (a force maybe) but I have not seen it. Whatever I have not seen I don’t really want to believe it exist. So, I don’t have a name for it. I don’t even know how it looks like … maybe one day if and when I see it, I will tell what it is called … that is, if I am still kicking. What others believe in, I have nothing to say about it. To them, God is the name … some others may have different names depending on what their beliefs are.

You can say I am not a religious person. On a few occasions when I tell people I don’t have any religion, they immediately see a red mean evil creature with a tail and two horns sticking out of my head, holding a long nasty trident standing in front of them. Look I don’t have a religion but please don’t look at me like I am a devil. Actually an evil person looks exactly like any other person around us … didn’t you read about people being murdered, burnt and dumped into rivers recently. The people who did this, they are the evil ones … do they look like devils to you?

When I say I don’t have a religion, it doesn’t mean I am anti-religion … as a matter of fact, I learn from all religions. I believe the teachings from all religions are good and I apply any teaching that I believe is good for me ... doesn’t matter which religion it is from.

I don’t believe in fate … to me, fate is for people who don’t want to make decision … so, they leave it to fate .. as they always say "It's fated".  Put it this way, I believe in what I decide and whatever I do will set the course of my life. Whether it is good or bad … I am responsible for my life not fate.

Once someone told me that I will go to hell … he said that if I don’t believe in fate and don’t belong to any religion, I have no heaven to go to, so hell is the only place. No worries and I am not losing sleep over it. I don’t know where the hell is hell but if the decisions I make and what I do is going to take me to hell, then let it be. Hey, when people say “It’s a hell of a place” … that sounds pretty exciting to me. I am looking forward to it already.

September 06, 2010

I am not amazed by how much people make …

How much can one person make? Millions, billions … trillions maybe … the sky is the limit. I read a lot about the rich and famous and I personally know quite a few. I salute them … they are all very capable people.

You know what? I am not amazed by how much people make … but I am surprised how little I really need. Having said that, it doesn’t mean everyone is like me. How much one needs is not for me to decide. Some are happy with the basics, some are contended with a little comfort while others must have luxury. I am only expressing my views and you don’t have to agree with me.

Look, I am not saying you should go hide in jungle and live like Tarzan. YES, be realistic … every family, big or small, needs money … for healthcare, for children’s education, for security and maybe other emergencies. My point is, when you think you have enough already, maybe you don’t need to keep chasing … maybe like me, you too will be surprised how little you really need.

I seek simple things in life now and they don’t really cost a lot. I don’t spend on expensive clothes, I don’t drive an expensive car and I don’t really go to expensive places. I can’t afford expensive stuffs to show off to people so that I “look good” ... I don’t need to anyway. Someone said this to me not so long ago “Shiek, you look old already, your hair is turning grey … you look so haggard lah". I don’t deny it at all … hey, I AM getting older and grey hair comes with age naturally. Some people don’t even get to live to see their grey hair. I am ok with whatever that is comfortable on me.

Really, how people see me from the outside is really not that important … whatever I do now is not to “look good” from the outside. What is important to me is how I feel inside. I feel healthy, I feel good, I feel happy … I feel GREAT! And to do that … I am surprised how little I really need.